Zimmedari

Chali thi gairo ko zimmedar banane,
Par yaha to apne hi gair zimmedar nikle.
Chali thi sheher ko saaf karne,
Par yaha to soch mese hi gandagi nikli.
Chali thi desh ko aantankwad se mukt karne,
Par yaha to deshwasi hi deshdrohi nikle.
Chali thi jahan ko apna maanne,
Par yaha to apne bhi gair nikle.

Freedom

You can put me in jail,
You can Tie me with the chains.
You can take away all of my freedom.
But you can't take away the music my heart creates.
You can't take away the love I do.
You can't take away the life I Live.

प्यार

कुछ चीज़े सिखाई नहीं जाती,
अपने आप आजाती हैं।
ख़ामोश ज़ुबान के लफ्ज़,
आंखे निकाल लाती हैं।

दिल खुदा का वो मेहेर है,
जो कहीं लग जाए तो केहेर ढा देता है।
प्यार तो दिल की आंख मी चोली है।
दिमाग को इससे बेखबर रखना चाहिए।
दिमाग इससे वाकिफ हो गया,
तो दिल को संभालने में वक्त नहीं लगना चाहिए।

प्यार वो नहीं जिनका तीन लफ्जों से इज़हार हो जाए।
प्यार वो हैं जो किसी और के चेहरे की मुस्कान आपके होटों पे ले आए।
प्यार खुदा की वो दुआ हैं
जो कभी हो जाए तो खुदा को भी नीचे खींच लाता है।

Motivation or Discouragement

It was somewhere around 2 PM. I had packed my bags and was doing the final check if anything has been left. I booked an Ola. I had my bus tickets booked for 3.30 pm which was going to drive me to my home town which was around at a distance of 6 hours from my current city, the city of my dreams. I had 14 big bags with me so had to ask my roommate cum best friend to help me with the luggage. I and my roommate took all the bags downstairs and now had to arrange them in the auto. But thanks to the auto driver he did it all.

You might be wondering if it's my city of dreams why am I leaving it. So let me answer to your questions.

It has been 2 years 3 months to be precise that i have been working for a recruitment firm. Daily waking up at 8 am sharp, actually 8.15 am, getting ready, amidst the confusion of whether I should take the follow up for the interviews first or I should bath first. And as they say, "Paisa bolta hai sahab", I had to take the follow up first. The office timings were 9.30 am to 6.30 pm, mind well I was very regular. It was my record to reach office regularly at 9.45 am and leave at 7.00 pm.  Fir wahi interviews me bande pohchane ka tension, naa pohche to boss se daat khane ki tension aur galtise agar pohach Gaye to sahi pate pe pohche k nahi aur kinse mile ka tension. Sab sahi hua to interview acha Diya ki nahi uska tension.
So you see, it was all a circle of tension. To ye tha Mera dream job MBA HR krnek baad Roz suba uthke you make calls and leave for your home making the calls! And when you come back you hope to rest peacefully but my friend you are not allowed to be Happy, there is a "HAPPY MEAL" waiting at the door. Dudhi ki sabzi, adhkachchi roti, pani jesi dal and some rice. To ye thi Meri Zindagi. However, I still managed to stay loyal to my company for 1.5 long years but my fate came to know that I am somewhat happy so it started  to spoil my performance graph and I started to lose all my closures followed by the warning from the boss. I was still firm waiting for my 2 years to complete so that I could be eligible for the appraisal. Fate was doing it's best. It took my biggest closure worth Rs. 16.50 lacs. I was broken.

You know while I was in that Ola a very strange thing happened with me. Looking at my luggage he thought I was shifting my house. I generally avoid talking to people as I am a huge introvert. So I simply said yes I am shifting my house. Par wo  kaha chup rehne Wala tha. He asked me where do I work. As a common thought underestimating a  rickshaw driver I simply said I am a HR thinking ki ye kaha Recruitment samjega.  Then he said he was working for a company which was in the same mall where my office was situated. I was shaken. He was a part time Ola driver working for the call centre in the night shift. Now obviously he was driving me to bus stop, so next question was are you going to do updown from your city. There was a sense of shame, embarrassment, I was going back to my hometown, leaving everything, quiting my job right before my appraisal, feeling depressed, tired of the monotonous job, having no backup plans, questioning my own decision thinking that this guy is doing double shifts for xyz reason and I could not even survive one shift.

You know what leaving a job makes you sad for, "Regular Fixed Income". I was going back with a heavy heart not because I couldn't make it for the job but was not able to figure out the way by which I could stay in that city. But we all know "Jo hona hota hai wo hoke rehta hai."

Some said you are doing a stupidity, some said don't leave without getting another job, some even said that I was lying I must have taken some other job. But here I am happy with the decision of leaving the job, still finding to get back to that city with no plans in mind. The only thing stuck to my mind is the auto driver doing double shifts to fulfill his dreams wondering if he was inspiring or discouraging?

That wedding Wala crush

You caught my eye,
When I first saw you.

You made my heart skip a beat,
When I first saw you seeing me.

You made me surprised,
When you said Hi with a huge smile on the wedding Wala night.

You made me jump off my bed,
When you sent me the friend request right after me checking your profile.

You made me feel beautiful,
When you said I am beautiful.

You even made me jealous,
When you spoke about others rather than me.

You made me blush,
When you said I have a crush on you.

You brought butterflies in me,
When you said I love you.

Kiss That Frog

You can make your life mold in the way you want only if you remain resolute to get what you want. But the question is how we can make ourselves stable. We consider ourselves to be independent. But are we actually what we consider and if yes, to what extent? If we are independent then why do depend on others for happiness. One person hurts us and our whole day gets sabotage. Why do we get affected by others to that extent that we start feeling low? There are instances where people remain angry for years with the people. But do we know that this only affects us and not to the other person who has hurt us. On the contrary, that person might be happy looking us in such a situation. Why do we let our negative emotions control us so badly that we start ignoring the positive things? And are we knowing that negativity is contagious. If we are sad right now we upset others for the whole day. It is just like a chain of happiness. Doing well to someone comes back to us someday. Similarly doing bad to others or even upsetting others comes back to us someday in some way. So why can’t we let go off the things. One negative thought in our mind while going to bed remains in our mind for the next whole day and this continues till the time we don’t let it go our mind.

Negative emotions are so insidious that they become the deadliest thing because we are not even aware about it that they are destroying, polluting our minds. Now the question is how we can stop these negative emotions from ruling our minds. The only cure, remedy or precaution to this is to preprogram our minds, ourselves. We constantly need to give positive commands to our minds. Now this process starts right from waking up in the bed in the morning till going to the bed in the night. You constantly need to tell yourself “I am Confident, I am Joyous, I am Responsible and so on.” This will always enable you to think in the positive indirection. This is just like the famous dialogue of the movie 3 Idiots “All Izz Well” where one tries to be positive and tries to avoid unnecessary stress. Initially it will be a difficult task but very effective in the long run. This habit will don’t let your negative emotions over power you. As soon as any negative emotion comes into your mind, your mind will immediately respond you saying “I am Confident, I am Joyous, and I am Responsible”.  As a result, one day will come where you will start ignoring your negative emotions.

The biggest negative emotion or we can say the biggest cause of negative emotion is Anger. There are people who get angry very easily. And there are people who even take advantage of our anger. Hence it is very important to have control over our anger. There are a number of ways how we can control our anger like meditation or doing things that you like the most. But as it is said Precaution is better than Cure. Similarly we should not let anger enter our minds. Because anger gives birth to all small and large catastrophes. Anger is the root of any problem. So instead of controlling it we should not allow our minds to get angry. This is possible only when we have control over our emotions.

This is what Brian Tracy somewhere intends to say in his book Kiss That Frog which is worth reading.

Hence the only thing is to always be very aware to what are we doing, how, when and why. Because whatever we do to or with others someday do come back in some way. 

Pehli Mulakaat

Aakhen Takrayi, Dil Mile,
Khamosh Lafzon Ka Nazron Se Iqraar Hua,
Baaton Hi Baaton Me Najane Kab,
Mohabbat - E - Dil Ka Labon Se Izhaar Hua.
                                               - NG

Full!

Ae Full! Pehle tu thoda aur khil to jaa;
Apne rang ko bol thoda aur ubharja.
Pehle duniya ko Bata to de;
Ki tu kitna Sundar, kitna khushbudaar Hain;
Pehle tu ye to soch ki tuje kis bagh me khilna Hain,
Fir is bagh se nikalna aur uss bagh me khilna.

                                                      - 13 September 2018

Zindagi

Na Jaane Kaha Leke Jana Chahti Hai Ye Zindagi,

Kabhi Hasati To Kabhi Rulati Hain Ye Zindagi.

Har Naye Panne K Sath Ek Naya Mod Laati Hain Zindagi.

Kabhi Badalti Hain Bhavishya To Kabhi Itihaas Batati Hain Ye Zindagi.

                                                  - 16 September 2018

Koi Haq Nahi

Jo akela karke chala jaaye use lautne ka koi haq nahi,
Jo haath chodke chala jaye use dobara pakadne ka koi haq nahi.

Jab saath khush the to Chodke dukh diya,
Jab alag hoke  khush huye to lautkar dukh diya.

Kaash koi bata pata use, kitna dard hota hain,
Khud ko apna kehalvake dusre ko paraya rakhne me.

Kaash koi keh pata use nahi paana chahti use ab,
Kyuki uske bina hi khush rehna sikh liya hai ab.

Yaad...

Ae Dil tu Kyu rota Hain...
Aaj bhi uski yaad me Kyu khota Hain...

Nahi kaabil wo Tere pyaar ke,
Aur naahi Tere intezaar ke...

Pucha Humse sabkuch, khudne kuch na bataya,
Aapne Gam ko har pal humse chupaya...

Humare Dil me jhaankar, khudko apna Banaya,

Fir kyu kabhi hum par, na padne diya apna saaya...

Hasin the wo pal, jab wo Tere saath tha,
Sukh me ek Yaar, to dukh me uska pyaar tha...

Wakt ne kiya sitam, chut gaya wo haath
Ab na wo pal Hain, naahi wo saath...

Bit Gaye wo din, khatam hogayi baatein,
Fir aaj bhi kyu jawaan hain wo wo yaadein...

Ae Dil tu Kyu rota Hain...
Aaj bhi uski yaad me Kyu khota Hain...