Zimmedari

Chali thi gairo ko zimmedar banane,
Par yaha to apne hi gair zimmedar nikle.
Chali thi sheher ko saaf karne,
Par yaha to soch mese hi gandagi nikli.
Chali thi desh ko aantankwad se mukt karne,
Par yaha to deshwasi hi deshdrohi nikle.
Chali thi jahan ko apna maanne,
Par yaha to apne bhi gair nikle.

Freedom

You can put me in jail,
You can Tie me with the chains.
You can take away all of my freedom.
But you can't take away the music my heart creates.
You can't take away the love I do.
You can't take away the life I Live.

प्यार

कुछ चीज़े सिखाई नहीं जाती,
अपने आप आजाती हैं।
ख़ामोश ज़ुबान के लफ्ज़,
आंखे निकाल लाती हैं।

दिल खुदा का वो मेहेर है,
जो कहीं लग जाए तो केहेर ढा देता है।
प्यार तो दिल की आंख मी चोली है।
दिमाग को इससे बेखबर रखना चाहिए।
दिमाग इससे वाकिफ हो गया,
तो दिल को संभालने में वक्त नहीं लगना चाहिए।

प्यार वो नहीं जिनका तीन लफ्जों से इज़हार हो जाए।
प्यार वो हैं जो किसी और के चेहरे की मुस्कान आपके होटों पे ले आए।
प्यार खुदा की वो दुआ हैं
जो कभी हो जाए तो खुदा को भी नीचे खींच लाता है।

Motivation or Discouragement

It was somewhere around 2 PM. I had packed my bags and was doing the final check if anything has been left. I booked an Ola. I had my bus tickets booked for 3.30 pm which was going to drive me to my home town which was around at a distance of 6 hours from my current city, the city of my dreams. I had 14 big bags with me so had to ask my roommate cum best friend to help me with the luggage. I and my roommate took all the bags downstairs and now had to arrange them in the auto. But thanks to the auto driver he did it all.

You might be wondering if it's my city of dreams why am I leaving it. So let me answer to your questions.

It has been 2 years 3 months to be precise that i have been working for a recruitment firm. Daily waking up at 8 am sharp, actually 8.15 am, getting ready, amidst the confusion of whether I should take the follow up for the interviews first or I should bath first. And as they say, "Paisa bolta hai sahab", I had to take the follow up first. The office timings were 9.30 am to 6.30 pm, mind well I was very regular. It was my record to reach office regularly at 9.45 am and leave at 7.00 pm.  Fir wahi interviews me bande pohchane ka tension, naa pohche to boss se daat khane ki tension aur galtise agar pohach Gaye to sahi pate pe pohche k nahi aur kinse mile ka tension. Sab sahi hua to interview acha Diya ki nahi uska tension.
So you see, it was all a circle of tension. To ye tha Mera dream job MBA HR krnek baad Roz suba uthke you make calls and leave for your home making the calls! And when you come back you hope to rest peacefully but my friend you are not allowed to be Happy, there is a "HAPPY MEAL" waiting at the door. Dudhi ki sabzi, adhkachchi roti, pani jesi dal and some rice. To ye thi Meri Zindagi. However, I still managed to stay loyal to my company for 1.5 long years but my fate came to know that I am somewhat happy so it started  to spoil my performance graph and I started to lose all my closures followed by the warning from the boss. I was still firm waiting for my 2 years to complete so that I could be eligible for the appraisal. Fate was doing it's best. It took my biggest closure worth Rs. 16.50 lacs. I was broken.

You know while I was in that Ola a very strange thing happened with me. Looking at my luggage he thought I was shifting my house. I generally avoid talking to people as I am a huge introvert. So I simply said yes I am shifting my house. Par wo  kaha chup rehne Wala tha. He asked me where do I work. As a common thought underestimating a  rickshaw driver I simply said I am a HR thinking ki ye kaha Recruitment samjega.  Then he said he was working for a company which was in the same mall where my office was situated. I was shaken. He was a part time Ola driver working for the call centre in the night shift. Now obviously he was driving me to bus stop, so next question was are you going to do updown from your city. There was a sense of shame, embarrassment, I was going back to my hometown, leaving everything, quiting my job right before my appraisal, feeling depressed, tired of the monotonous job, having no backup plans, questioning my own decision thinking that this guy is doing double shifts for xyz reason and I could not even survive one shift.

You know what leaving a job makes you sad for, "Regular Fixed Income". I was going back with a heavy heart not because I couldn't make it for the job but was not able to figure out the way by which I could stay in that city. But we all know "Jo hona hota hai wo hoke rehta hai."

Some said you are doing a stupidity, some said don't leave without getting another job, some even said that I was lying I must have taken some other job. But here I am happy with the decision of leaving the job, still finding to get back to that city with no plans in mind. The only thing stuck to my mind is the auto driver doing double shifts to fulfill his dreams wondering if he was inspiring or discouraging?